adminGrowing up, anxiety and depression were not things we talked about. They were literally hush hush. So much so, that I didn’t even know they existed… much less what the symptoms were! Although I do remember sitting there with my arms around my knees in the middle of the night, praying the fear and the pain would go away, shaking, crying, and rocking myself to try to calm down while Bob Marley’s “Three Little Birds” played on repeat on my stereo for what seems like years. Not minutes, not days, not months. Years.
Today, I understand what’s going on and it’s a little easier to manage, but still. When it comes around the corner and hits you in the face, you just don’t expect it. Ever. And you fall without a safety net.
I still listen to Bob Marley, I still rock myself to calm down, but I understand it’s a cycle and that it’s temporary. No need for permanent solutions.
For those who don’t know what anxiety and depression is like, I found these three quotes that describe it well:
- “Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It’s the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends, but hate socializing. It’s wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely. It’s feeling everything at once then feeling paralyzingly numb.” — Anonymous
- “Whenever I have a good few months and I think I’ve gotten over the worst on my depression, it silently returns. This isn’t a battle I asked to fight. I’m tired of knowing it’s always coming back.” — Anonymous
- “Losing your life is not the worst thing that can happen. The worst thing is to lose your reason for living.”― Jo Nesbo
How do you deal with your anxiety? Depression?
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